I had recently come back from a mountaintop experience. As I attempted to get back into my routine I found a great cloud of oppression come over me. Each day I attempted to press through it with no success. Fear, anxiety, doubt and unbelief were setting in. I knew I was fretting over my future. I had been in a long period of transition in my business life and was tired of the place of waiting. Yet, I didn’t understand the oppression. It was definitely spiritual warfare.
That night I was reading a book regarding "our calling from God." The author made mention that we can become envious of others when we get into a place where we are dissatisfied. Suddenly I realized I was guilty of envying where other business people were in their lives. I was "subconsciously" angry that the calling God had placed on my life had such adversity. I had to repent.
As if this were not enough, the next day the Holy Spirit confirmed my assessment in the most unusual way. That morning I turned my computer on to read my own Marketplace Meditation that is sent to my computer. The message was on "Envying Others" with the same scripture reference as the author’s in the book. Imagine God using my own words to convict me of sin! The nerve of Him! To make matters worse, at lunchtime I tuned into the local Christian radio station to hear an interview with the same author of the book cite the very passage I had read the day before. I was shocked to realize how the Holy Spirit could be so precise in His ability to convict and give proof of His activity in my life.
Do you question if the Holy Spirit is active in your life? The Lord has promised that the Holy Spirit will convict us of sin when we move away from Him. It is His responsibility as our guide.